Yes, I am at THAT place. Maybe you know the ONE and have been there too. It's that place where you always get to when you lose weight and then for some reason you just cant get past it. And not because your body is at a plateau but because your mind is. It's the point when you just seem to lose all will power and strength and all the excuses of why you can"t proceed keep slapping you in the face at every meal and at every thought that says I should exercise.
So I need to ask myself, What is going to make this time different? How am I going to pull past this and keep going so I can reach my goal by Christmas? Well I have some ideas, BUT PLEASE chime in with any thoughts of encouragement or inspiration.
I have been pinning short fun exercise routines that I can do throughout my day in between changing diapers and breaking up fights between the kids. I guess I should take those seconds to do them instead of pinning more. hehe
I also have ordered a new raw eating book. 80/10/10 diet and Have printed off and expanded my recipe collection.
I also am going to get back into my netflix food documentaries while I walk on my treadmill, which means I need to get back in the habit of getting the kiddos to bed at a reasonable hour. Did I mention how difficult my children are and how lazy and depressed I get when hubby is away? You'd think it would be easier because I have complete control over my extra time at night and what gets fixed for dinner but it just doesn't seem to work that way.
So I guess what I am trying to say is that I feel like I am drowning and need some extra support to make it to my awesomeness by Christmas. So if I have been inspiring at all up to this point please encourage me and let me know you're there so I can move on to the next place...the I did it completely, not just for a while success phase.
Thanks everyone!
Oh and btw it is really embarrassing to have to tell you that I am at that place BUT I wanted to make this a real truthful journey and by writing this blog and sharing I could get past this place in the road that I always seem to reach and never surpass. ....UNTIL NOW! (positive progress to follow)
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Friday, June 29, 2012
Vacations with strengths and struggles
Yes, I know it feels like it has been years...right!?! At least it does to me. After my last post the typical daddy is gone everything must break and go wrong set in. I was so frustrated. I planned a trip out to IL for my sister's graduation and because of all the stress ended up leaving early so I could have help from family sooner. I was prepared! I took bags for everyone full of Larabars, dehydrated fruit, nuts and stuff so we wouldn't have to stop on the road to eat. I also prepped my family on our eating habits so my mom could get proper groceries from her end. I took my juicer with me and my vitamix blender, along with some specialty items for recipes that I knew I probably wouldn't be able to find there. We had a very good time and we did great!
I made sure to have my family try all my recipes. Some they liked and others they did not. I did make an exception while I was there for my two favorite childhood restraunts...Avantis and LaGondola. Which I had planned for months on making that exception. I knew a few things...1) It would taste AMAZING as usual! 2)I'd probably get sick and feel horrible 3) It would probably cause cravings! And that it did....worse than I thought. I will admit that because of this...Yes..I cheated a few more times. Am I paying for it? Yes I am. Should I have not had it? Maybe. But the great thing is is that even though I am really struggling with cravings right now I am back on track. I figured the easiest way to get back on track is to juice and have some smoothies, but no nuts or other major fats like coconut oil. By the end of the week my cravings should be gone and I should be go to go again on my raw journey. My dearest husband is away again so this is the perfect time to really focus in and see how much better I can look and feel by the time he gets back. I have a goal to lose 40 more lbs by Christmas. This would put me at my ideal body weight. I have already told dearest husband that I would like my wedding ring resized for Christmas. It has been over a year since I have worn it because it is too loose. (I had it sized up when I had put on the weight)
On another note. I didnot weigh myself the whole time I was in IL. I was up 4lbs when I got home (probably from the cheats) BUT I am down a pant/dress size !!!!! WOOHOO! I imagine by the end of this week, I will have lost the 4lbs and hopefully more. I got my spiralizer when I got home and I love it!!! It is by far the coolest thing ever! I love how the zucchini noodles taste. I haven't found a topper though that I really like yet. Still playing with that part. So this is my latest update. Because I am juicing again I will keep you posted as to if it is as great as it was the first time. Hope you are all living healthy and happily!
I made sure to have my family try all my recipes. Some they liked and others they did not. I did make an exception while I was there for my two favorite childhood restraunts...Avantis and LaGondola. Which I had planned for months on making that exception. I knew a few things...1) It would taste AMAZING as usual! 2)I'd probably get sick and feel horrible 3) It would probably cause cravings! And that it did....worse than I thought. I will admit that because of this...Yes..I cheated a few more times. Am I paying for it? Yes I am. Should I have not had it? Maybe. But the great thing is is that even though I am really struggling with cravings right now I am back on track. I figured the easiest way to get back on track is to juice and have some smoothies, but no nuts or other major fats like coconut oil. By the end of the week my cravings should be gone and I should be go to go again on my raw journey. My dearest husband is away again so this is the perfect time to really focus in and see how much better I can look and feel by the time he gets back. I have a goal to lose 40 more lbs by Christmas. This would put me at my ideal body weight. I have already told dearest husband that I would like my wedding ring resized for Christmas. It has been over a year since I have worn it because it is too loose. (I had it sized up when I had put on the weight)
On another note. I didnot weigh myself the whole time I was in IL. I was up 4lbs when I got home (probably from the cheats) BUT I am down a pant/dress size !!!!! WOOHOO! I imagine by the end of this week, I will have lost the 4lbs and hopefully more. I got my spiralizer when I got home and I love it!!! It is by far the coolest thing ever! I love how the zucchini noodles taste. I haven't found a topper though that I really like yet. Still playing with that part. So this is my latest update. Because I am juicing again I will keep you posted as to if it is as great as it was the first time. Hope you are all living healthy and happily!
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Fast Food and Fast Moves
So I know it has been a while since my last post. I was worried that my posts were starting to all sound the same as I posted daily. Hence the reason for not hearing from me in a while. It has been a bit of a roller coaster emotionally this past week, but more so the past few days.
Last week I exercised everyday....up until Thursday when baby decided he WAS NOT going to go to bed till 10 and/or 11pm. That's the problem with leaving your workout till after the kids go to bed....sometimes it just doesn't happen. It is important to take advantage of those few minutes here and there throughout your day. Which some days I did and other days, my emotions got the better of me and I threw down my lazy card. With this insight I wanted to make sure i had some quick workouts on hand to do. My health coach, Connie Lancaster, found this amazing video a while back and so I reintroduced myself to these FAST MOVES. you can google M-100's (Ninja workout). It is pretty hard core. Now i can't do the jumping burpee thing really well at the beginning so I have modified it to where I step back and up and I believe for my exercise level I am getting the same intensity for me. Does that make sense? You can also google modified burpee and there are some videos on that. I have also been doing a lot of core exercises. Today I even was able to get in interval training on my treadmill. It was a really good workout day today.
Let's talk FAST FOOD. Did I eat some....YES! I ate the fastest food on the planet. FRUIT and veggies. Did I trick you? I haven't been making very many recipes lately. I told you the boys and I were going for simple while daddy is gone. We really haven't been eating any set meals around here. It has just been grabbing whatever we are in the mood for. Apple? Grapes? Carrots? ect...ect...
I am so excited! I ordered a spiralizer for myself for Mother's day! I know it sounds silly but dear hubby told me to as he can't do stuff like that while he is gone. I can't wait to get it. I hope it comes really fast!!!
I finally went down a pound and lost some more inches! This was Monday that I noticed this. On Tuesday, I was up 1.4lbs. I am fully aware that this could just be a daily fluctuation of 5-7lbs, BUT I did have an increase of nuts yesterday and some coconut oil. I'm really starting to wonder if I need to just stick with avocados as my fat source. Any thoughts? Maybe when I get down to my ideal weight this won't be such a big deal. It makes me kinda sad though because there are so many good recipes with nuts in them.
Did I tell you that I am going to start working on this from the inside out? What I mean by that is that I am going to really strengthen my core tons and exercise as much as I can and even if my weight doesn't change....my pants size, shirt size and appearance of my body will.
On another note, I just have to tell you this! Just a little, no a BIG success! The boys and I went out for groceries today. We had to go to two different places and they were VERY VERY GOOD! It really helped that I told them if they were not that they would not get any tortilla's or Larabars! Yes, I work that way.
so there you have it, Little success. It's all a day at a time. Hope your day is the best!
Last week I exercised everyday....up until Thursday when baby decided he WAS NOT going to go to bed till 10 and/or 11pm. That's the problem with leaving your workout till after the kids go to bed....sometimes it just doesn't happen. It is important to take advantage of those few minutes here and there throughout your day. Which some days I did and other days, my emotions got the better of me and I threw down my lazy card. With this insight I wanted to make sure i had some quick workouts on hand to do. My health coach, Connie Lancaster, found this amazing video a while back and so I reintroduced myself to these FAST MOVES. you can google M-100's (Ninja workout). It is pretty hard core. Now i can't do the jumping burpee thing really well at the beginning so I have modified it to where I step back and up and I believe for my exercise level I am getting the same intensity for me. Does that make sense? You can also google modified burpee and there are some videos on that. I have also been doing a lot of core exercises. Today I even was able to get in interval training on my treadmill. It was a really good workout day today.
Let's talk FAST FOOD. Did I eat some....YES! I ate the fastest food on the planet. FRUIT and veggies. Did I trick you? I haven't been making very many recipes lately. I told you the boys and I were going for simple while daddy is gone. We really haven't been eating any set meals around here. It has just been grabbing whatever we are in the mood for. Apple? Grapes? Carrots? ect...ect...
I am so excited! I ordered a spiralizer for myself for Mother's day! I know it sounds silly but dear hubby told me to as he can't do stuff like that while he is gone. I can't wait to get it. I hope it comes really fast!!!
I finally went down a pound and lost some more inches! This was Monday that I noticed this. On Tuesday, I was up 1.4lbs. I am fully aware that this could just be a daily fluctuation of 5-7lbs, BUT I did have an increase of nuts yesterday and some coconut oil. I'm really starting to wonder if I need to just stick with avocados as my fat source. Any thoughts? Maybe when I get down to my ideal weight this won't be such a big deal. It makes me kinda sad though because there are so many good recipes with nuts in them.
Did I tell you that I am going to start working on this from the inside out? What I mean by that is that I am going to really strengthen my core tons and exercise as much as I can and even if my weight doesn't change....my pants size, shirt size and appearance of my body will.
On another note, I just have to tell you this! Just a little, no a BIG success! The boys and I went out for groceries today. We had to go to two different places and they were VERY VERY GOOD! It really helped that I told them if they were not that they would not get any tortilla's or Larabars! Yes, I work that way.
so there you have it, Little success. It's all a day at a time. Hope your day is the best!
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Conquering negative thoughts and dinner!
I did it! I exercised yesterday! I not only exercised yesterday, but I exercised a lot yesterday and multiple times. So much so that I am sore today. With being at home with the kids I had to kind of break it up. So I took a walk with a good friend and then I jumped on the trampoline with the boys a bit later. I chased them around the yard as well. Then when baby finally took a nap I walked on my treadmill. I turned around after I got the kids to bed and did core exercises and upper body exercises. Then later...much later when my husband called I jumped back on the treadmill again. It wasn't as intense as it probably should have been but the goal for the day was just to start and move and do something. Hopefully today and each day will become a little more intense.
So today I woke up and wanted a juice. I made one and it was delicious. I love this because I can get tons of nutrients packed into a simple glass of juice. It's not as time consuming when I'm just making it for me.
I had these great intentions while my husband is gone of learning all these new recipes and being this gourmet raw chef by the time he comes home. But this is really hard to do when you have no one to eat it with you really. I mean my older two will but the younger two have a harder time. Which means fixing multiple things for dinner. Which I know I was partially doing before he left, but it felt worth it then. So laziness in this department has set in early in this husband being gone situation. Survival mode with the kiddos has set in and it is only day 2.
This has led to the common husband is gone syndrome of , "I don't want to fix anything for dinner itis ". So I'm not sure that you'll hear much from me on the recipe end of things for a while. I'll probably keep things simple....juice, smoothie, raw fruit, raw veggie, 1/4 cup nuts and so forth. Last night, I was like what am I gonna feed the kids? Especially baby...he doesn't always tolerate my recipes. So I think meals for them may be similar. Hungry? have a cheese stick, have a piece of fruit, grab some carrots...how bout a sandwich or a burrito? cereal for dinner? sure! I don't know why this happens when daddies leave for a while but it just does. I know I am not the only one this happens to. Oh well, it is what it is and simplicity can be good.
I'm doing what I need to be eating wise and exercise wise. But because my scale is stuck and my tape measure hasn't changed in a week and a half, I've been having thoughts like, " Will I really be able to achieve these goals? and "What if I do all this stuff and yeah I feel better but my body stays this way forever and doesn't look better and slimmer?!? So with all this fear I think I need to ramp up my positive self talk and my prayers and scripture study so these negative thoughts don't get the better of me before I have really had a chance to try! My mom told me it is like paying off a debt. If you keep paying extra on it, then you know it WILL get paid off. It's just frustrating when you've paid some but it hasn't showed up in the account yet that you have. I guess it is taking this body a bit longer to process my payment.
So here you have it, another day in my thoughts and journey towards health and wellness. Go do something amazing for your body today!
So today I woke up and wanted a juice. I made one and it was delicious. I love this because I can get tons of nutrients packed into a simple glass of juice. It's not as time consuming when I'm just making it for me.
I had these great intentions while my husband is gone of learning all these new recipes and being this gourmet raw chef by the time he comes home. But this is really hard to do when you have no one to eat it with you really. I mean my older two will but the younger two have a harder time. Which means fixing multiple things for dinner. Which I know I was partially doing before he left, but it felt worth it then. So laziness in this department has set in early in this husband being gone situation. Survival mode with the kiddos has set in and it is only day 2.
This has led to the common husband is gone syndrome of , "I don't want to fix anything for dinner itis ". So I'm not sure that you'll hear much from me on the recipe end of things for a while. I'll probably keep things simple....juice, smoothie, raw fruit, raw veggie, 1/4 cup nuts and so forth. Last night, I was like what am I gonna feed the kids? Especially baby...he doesn't always tolerate my recipes. So I think meals for them may be similar. Hungry? have a cheese stick, have a piece of fruit, grab some carrots...how bout a sandwich or a burrito? cereal for dinner? sure! I don't know why this happens when daddies leave for a while but it just does. I know I am not the only one this happens to. Oh well, it is what it is and simplicity can be good.
I'm doing what I need to be eating wise and exercise wise. But because my scale is stuck and my tape measure hasn't changed in a week and a half, I've been having thoughts like, " Will I really be able to achieve these goals? and "What if I do all this stuff and yeah I feel better but my body stays this way forever and doesn't look better and slimmer?!? So with all this fear I think I need to ramp up my positive self talk and my prayers and scripture study so these negative thoughts don't get the better of me before I have really had a chance to try! My mom told me it is like paying off a debt. If you keep paying extra on it, then you know it WILL get paid off. It's just frustrating when you've paid some but it hasn't showed up in the account yet that you have. I guess it is taking this body a bit longer to process my payment.
So here you have it, another day in my thoughts and journey towards health and wellness. Go do something amazing for your body today!
Monday, April 23, 2012
Thoughts and Plans
I didn't post over the weekend because I was spending as much time with my hubby before he headed out. I made a lot of good recipes this weekend. I made a raw lasagna that had zucchini, spinach, tomatoes, walnuts, macadamias and a bunch of herbs and spices. It should have been fantastic BUT the miso paste that was in it was way too salty along with salting the zucchini and spinach to make it soft. I will be making this recipe again because it had GREAT flavor except for the salt. Hubby made a raw strawberry rhubarb pie which was very good. We also had a kelp salad. I had never had kelp noodles before. I expected a slimy sea taste, but was pleasantly surprised to find they are crunchy and don't have a taste at all. Last night though I made the MOST AMAZING thing.......Portobello "Steaks" with spinach salad. The flavor was outstanding! I decided to have this recipe because my husband wasn't home and he doesn't like mushrooms. I kind of wish I had made it when he was here though because maybe he would have tried it and liked it. So recipe wise things are going great. Somewhat time consuming but I have some time right now. I may simplify though and just eat the fruit or veggie as is most days, we will see.
OK so it is Monday and I said I would start working out today so I will. Now that my hubby is gone for 4 months this is my goal. I've been at a standstill on my weight and inches for about a week now. I think part of this is due to my lack of exercise. I also wonder if some of these high in nuts recipes are causing me some issues. It's just kinda frustrating though because there isn't much more I can take out of my diet!!! I'm down to fruits, vegetables and nuts and seeds. I try and limit the nuts, seeds and avocados to once or twice a day. The goal is to be one hot mama and drop at least half of the weight I have left to lose before he comes back in August. So we will see...how this goes. Hopefully my body will cooperate with my brain. And hopefully the kids will cooperate as well. Well I'll keep it short...I need to be moving.
OK so it is Monday and I said I would start working out today so I will. Now that my hubby is gone for 4 months this is my goal. I've been at a standstill on my weight and inches for about a week now. I think part of this is due to my lack of exercise. I also wonder if some of these high in nuts recipes are causing me some issues. It's just kinda frustrating though because there isn't much more I can take out of my diet!!! I'm down to fruits, vegetables and nuts and seeds. I try and limit the nuts, seeds and avocados to once or twice a day. The goal is to be one hot mama and drop at least half of the weight I have left to lose before he comes back in August. So we will see...how this goes. Hopefully my body will cooperate with my brain. And hopefully the kids will cooperate as well. Well I'll keep it short...I need to be moving.
Friday, April 20, 2012
Getting better all the time!
Thursday was a much better day for me! I woke up and I had tons of energy. I have heard several army wives say, "you take a day to mope and then you get on with what all needs to be done. So that is exactly what I did. Even though I'm sure all the emotions will hit me again when he really walks out the door and steps on the plane. The boys and I cruised through their school day and got our cleaning chores done. I made some amazing recipes yesterday. I have a tendency to eat more fruit then vegetables so I decided to make it a veggie day and so I made a tomato bisque soup. It was very good, BUT if you are expecting it to taste like Campbell's Tomato Soup it doesn't. It was really easy to make and that was nice because some of my recipes lately have been pretty in depth. Then for dinner I made a wilted kale salad with an avocado dressing. It was delicious. I think next time I will not put as much jalapeno though.
We had a hail and farewell to go to last night for hubby's unit. It was an eating event at a BBQ place. I ate before hand, knowing that I was not going to be eating the fare at the restaurant. I was glad I planned ahead for two reasons:
1: The BBQ smelled REALLY good! I told myself though, "Now self, you know that is covered in sugar! Not a good choice."
2. The only vegetable served was coleslaw which I think is gross anyway and I'm sure it is very unhealthy the way they make it.
The amazing thing is that yes it felt kind of funny to have people ask why I wasn't eating, BUT I was content and perfectly happy with the salad I had before I left and I didn't feel deprived at all. It amazes me how much I've changed. Something like this would have driven me crazy before and I would have definitely felt deprived and upset that I was missing out.
Now as far as the exercise....I haven't really started yet. I know I am horrible. I did a few the other day for like 5 -10 min but that really doesn't count. So seriously...I am starting that hard core MONDAY! Seriously! No Excuses!
We had a hail and farewell to go to last night for hubby's unit. It was an eating event at a BBQ place. I ate before hand, knowing that I was not going to be eating the fare at the restaurant. I was glad I planned ahead for two reasons:
1: The BBQ smelled REALLY good! I told myself though, "Now self, you know that is covered in sugar! Not a good choice."
2. The only vegetable served was coleslaw which I think is gross anyway and I'm sure it is very unhealthy the way they make it.
The amazing thing is that yes it felt kind of funny to have people ask why I wasn't eating, BUT I was content and perfectly happy with the salad I had before I left and I didn't feel deprived at all. It amazes me how much I've changed. Something like this would have driven me crazy before and I would have definitely felt deprived and upset that I was missing out.
Now as far as the exercise....I haven't really started yet. I know I am horrible. I did a few the other day for like 5 -10 min but that really doesn't count. So seriously...I am starting that hard core MONDAY! Seriously! No Excuses!
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
It's not always Sunshine and Roses
I try to make sure my posts are up beat and positive but real because no one wants to read negative cranky posts all the time. We want to read stuff that uplifts us and makes us want to be a better person. I however do not want you to think that it is always so easy for me and then you get disheartened thinking...Why can't I do that?...because you can. Also I want you to know that today.....
I AM IN A BAD MOOD! I am CRANKY and IRRITABLE and down right SAD. The kids are driving me CRAZY and I am having a feel sorry for myself cause my husband is leaving for 4 months kind of day!!! In fact I have been feeling this way for awhile now and have just tried to mask it in indulging myself in nutrition so much so as to not feel the lose that I am about to experience. Can I just say in my defense that I have been through a year deployment and I am going to go through another one in a year from now so this is all just coming down on me at the moment.
I am an emotional eater. Normally I would just sit down with some good chocolate and junk food and sulk. It's important to realize these things about yourself. BUT I am trying to be different. I am still eating healthy today as I have been up to this point. What has been suffering though is my workouts. I've just been laying around with the kids instead...trying to get baby to take a nap so maybe I could get something done around this house....only to fall asleep with him. I keep making excuses in this department saying to myself, "When he actually leaves I will have more time and I will do these amazing workouts." Let's hope it is true. Hold me to it, will you?
So I guess I need to have a better plan on the exercise front. Exercise is suppose to help your mood. So maybe I should try that today!?! So I guess I need to make sure I do an hour a day.
On a more positive note (My Sunshine and Roses) I lost another pound this morning and a few inches. Also we had another amazing dinner last night. Avocado stuffed peppers and Nori Salad(It was suppose to be Nori rolls BUT I couldn't get the sheets to stay closed and not tear!) So it became a salad. The kids really didn't like this dish but the older two were good sports.
I also want to thank everyone who reads my posts and a special thanks to all my military friends who have all went through deployments and TDY and all those fun contracting jobs were our guys are away. I hope you know you are amazing and I will try and suck it up and not complain so much because I know you know exactly what I am feeling but yet you all have handled it so much better than I do. Love you ladies!
So get out there and move today! I'm going to!
I AM IN A BAD MOOD! I am CRANKY and IRRITABLE and down right SAD. The kids are driving me CRAZY and I am having a feel sorry for myself cause my husband is leaving for 4 months kind of day!!! In fact I have been feeling this way for awhile now and have just tried to mask it in indulging myself in nutrition so much so as to not feel the lose that I am about to experience. Can I just say in my defense that I have been through a year deployment and I am going to go through another one in a year from now so this is all just coming down on me at the moment.
I am an emotional eater. Normally I would just sit down with some good chocolate and junk food and sulk. It's important to realize these things about yourself. BUT I am trying to be different. I am still eating healthy today as I have been up to this point. What has been suffering though is my workouts. I've just been laying around with the kids instead...trying to get baby to take a nap so maybe I could get something done around this house....only to fall asleep with him. I keep making excuses in this department saying to myself, "When he actually leaves I will have more time and I will do these amazing workouts." Let's hope it is true. Hold me to it, will you?
So I guess I need to have a better plan on the exercise front. Exercise is suppose to help your mood. So maybe I should try that today!?! So I guess I need to make sure I do an hour a day.
On a more positive note (My Sunshine and Roses) I lost another pound this morning and a few inches. Also we had another amazing dinner last night. Avocado stuffed peppers and Nori Salad(It was suppose to be Nori rolls BUT I couldn't get the sheets to stay closed and not tear!) So it became a salad. The kids really didn't like this dish but the older two were good sports.
I also want to thank everyone who reads my posts and a special thanks to all my military friends who have all went through deployments and TDY and all those fun contracting jobs were our guys are away. I hope you know you are amazing and I will try and suck it up and not complain so much because I know you know exactly what I am feeling but yet you all have handled it so much better than I do. Love you ladies!
So get out there and move today! I'm going to!
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